2019 UMC Immersion

My Heart Ache

In St. Louis, Missouri today, February 26th, 2019.

Am traveling with our Immersion Class from Pacific School of Religion, Berkeley, California with our Professor, Filipe Maia with group of 16 students. I count it as a blessing to be with this lovely group and in this historical event, the UMC General Conference 2019. I wanted to take this opportunity to thank PSR and to all the churches and everyone that sponsored our Immersion Class. With their love and support we were able to be here today to learn and to witness and experience this historical moment.

Today in St. Louis, forecast is cloudy and seems like the sun does not want to come out for some reason.  I felt the heaviness, the hurt, the grief of my brothers and sisters. Even though I grew up in a culture that has different belief than the LGBQIA, with attending PSR is an eye opener that I explore and learn much more about what is the purpose of our lives. Who am I and what I am here on earth for? What does love mean?  To love one another, especially those that are different from us. It’s easy to understand how it’s felt as a minority. I sometimes feel that I am the Others in the society and the community. It is a heart broken to witness the hurt and grief that is caused by the result of the decisions made for Traditional Plan.  The decision that was made by men and women. I wonder if John Wesley, the founder of the Methodist was here today, I am pretty sure he would said the same thing again.

“Do No Harm, Do Good, Stay in love with God”

I know there’s a lot of grief on all sides I watch my dear LGBQIA brothers and sisters and I am in tears today, I do mourn and grieve with them, for a part of me is hurt.  In hearing people of 4th and 5th generation Methodist, their ancestors were Clergy from each generation. The only church that they know, the church that they love and called home. O, what a heart broken to hear those voices. Those voices that they witness God’s love to them and through them a lot of people came to know Jesus Christ through them. People that they love Jesus and follow Jesus’ foot step.

Jesus said, John 13:34-35

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

The One Church Plan is a mirror that reflects this command, not leaving anyone behind, not separating anyone or call Others. We are all the same to the eyes of God, our maker the Creator of Heaven and Earth.  I wonder if Jesus was here today. Again as John Wesley said, “Do no Harm, Do Good, Stay in love with God.”  And Jesus said, “The new command is to love one another as I have loved you. The world will know that you are United Methodist if you love one another as I have lovde you.” As UMC are trying to walk as John Wesley the founder of the Methodist walk, as Christian we wanted to follow Jesus’ footsteps. The new command is to love one another.

I had never felt so sad and hurt for my LGBQIA brothers and sisters like today, I pray that the good Lord help us all to give us peace in our heart. To comfort us and to enlighten us as we are going through this rough time in the UMC today’s pathway. I do believe that time will tell and time will heal. Change is always hard but always best for all. That “best” is yet to come and sooner than we expect. Yes, God is still on the throne and had promised us that “He never leave us nor forsake us, He will always be with us till the end of ages.” I do believe with no doubt that those tears and heart broken will turn into a shout of joys and sing of praise some day soon. My heart ache. God bless.